"If God brings you to it; He will bring you through it"

January...Oh I am so glad to see you almost behind me. I have felt like this whole month has been against me. I haven't been myself. I have been very pessimistic and everything bothers me. (Not me right?)
I haven't even really told anyone my struggles because I hate to admit something is wrong. I don't like people knowing this part of me. And I guess saying it on the blog..defeats that..oh well. Hey world...sorry I am not Perfect!

For awhile now I have been wanting to write down positive things that happen to me through out the day, in hopes to out weigh my negativity and anger. I have been thinking about them for awhile and just need to do it. And on those hard days I can go back and read them, which hopefully will raise my spirits.
I also hope to add to this daliy. You don't have to read..its more for my benefit :)

1. I am reminded of this every Monday; when I go to the bathroom at work and see the seat up. Its happy to know that I am the 1st one to use a clean toilet.


2. Co workers who keep me laughing


3. Reading blogs; particularly Mandi W, Leah P, and Sister Durr's. Side Note: Mandi if you ever read this...I adore your blog. I started reading it when the twins were born. Lets just say tears streamed down my face and many prayers were said in behalf of your family. I love seeing those boys so healthy and happy. Reminds me constantly that our Heavenly Father is near and does hear our prayers.


4. Random phone calls from my mom, just seeing if I am okay.


5. When my dad takes me out to dinner and helps with the "manly" stuff at my house


6. The Davis and Canasta. Enough said.


7. Taking the Sacrament


8. The Temple, the only place I have felt comfort and love for awhile


9. H-Bugs running hugs


10. Knowing that I am going to DC in April to see my awesome niece get baptised.


11. Our new addition to the family, I love new babies.


12. Having my brother Alan randomly call me (even if I don't pick up all the time) just to talk.


13. Finally having a talk with Ashlee who sees me for me and still loves me...even if I have been so distant.


14. Laughing with Amanda about our Ukraine adventures.


15. Mindy Gledhall, I can listen to her CD and immediately feel better!


16. Oooo new one..speaking of CD's...Ingrid Michelson's new CD..and her concert in April!


17. Funny..but phone calls (happy ones) with my customers out of state. I love talking about the weather, University of Utah, and the Jazz. Those old men make me laugh.


18. Hearing Snap talk about her love for Oakcrest. Rejuvenated mine.


19. Working out/Running


20. Pinterest


21. Weather this winter. Anxiety of driving in snow...none! (so far!)


22. Random get together with Michelle and Paige. Adore both of them. And LOVE the talks I get to have with Michelle.

More to come :)

Ps this has helped writing them down. If any of you feel down in the dumps..I highly recommend it. These happy/positive moments definitely outweigh any negative thoughts I have been having.

2011 Recap

As I think back on this year I have to smile. Twenty Eleven was such an amazing year mostly because I learned a lot about myself and who I really am. I became closer to my Heavenly Father and my testimony grew 10 fold. But don't get me wrong it wasn't all rainbows and unicorns, to be able to grow I had to be tested and had some trials that I wish never to repeat. But I rather not talk about those!

Some 2011 highlights!

• River 10th YSA Branch Not all of us but a good amount (and some randoms)

We were small but united and cared about each other. (Well at least I thought this....if not don't tell me!). I was pulled out of my comfort zone while being Relief Society President. The Lord prepared me for this but I never knew how much this calling asked for. And plus we only had 15 girls...it made me appreciated all those RS presidents who have 50+ women to help. Like I said even though we were small, I wouldn't ask for a better group of girls. I learned a lot from them. Plus, I couldn't ask for a better presidency. They were fabulous, definitely helped me know what to do and how to handle different situations. Lastly, I couldn't have done all of this with out President Davis. Such an amazing man, that helped me become who I am today. Without him I know, actually I am positive I wouldn't be where I am now. Wait...Last of the last...I couldn't have done this with out my Heavenly Father and Brother Christ.

• May 7, 2011

Must say that this is one of my happiest moments in my life. For the longest time people would ask me when I would receive my endowments, I never felt ready. After going to do baptisms in March/April I felt like it was time. I began talking with my dad and mom about the impressions I receiving, I could not deny what I felt but at the same time this is NOT how I planned it. I always thought I would receive my endowments like every other normal LDS girl...when I got married. However, the Lord had a different plan for me. After a long hard month I finally was able to walk in those doors at the Jordan River Temple and receive precious blessings that I needed.

Ps: One of the best moments there...seeing my beautiful camper, Kelli receiving hers also. Kinda a proud mommy moment (even if she was only with me for 3 days!).

• Turning the BIG 25
  
Out of every birthday I have had...turning 25 was the hardest. I actually have never had issues with my birthdays until now. I think I just thought I would be at a different place at my life when I was 25 but that hasn't happened yet. I have learned that the Lord has a plan for me and even though it may not be going how I wish, I need to keep on going on with my life and do the right things. I will be blessed for waiting. I cant dwell on what I don't have and perfect what I do.



• Ordnance Worker
Remember how I love love love the temple? I think I let everyone I come in contact with know that. One of the biggest highlights of my year is being able to work at the Oquirrh Mountain Temple. I have learned so much and each time I am serving I walk away a better person.




• Baby E-bug! I am blessed to have such an amazing best friend and she gave birth to one beautiful daughters of God. E has been a blessing in my life, why? Shes not mine and I hardly see her but it has brought me closer to Amanda and Matt. Its amazing what babies can do :) ( I did have a picture loaded...but its not working)

I am excited for what 2012 will bring!

Ps...sorry this looks bad...having a hard time making it all uniform...blasted blogger!

Truths for Mature Humans

I recieved this e-mail from my boss today and I just had to post it. I think every single thing on this list is true!! Also I am working on my recap of 2011...so be ready :) ps sorry for the swears

Truths For Mature Humans
1. I think part of a best friend's job should be to immediately clear your computer history if you die.
2. Nothing sucks more than that moment during an argument when you realize you're wrong.
3. I totally take back all those times I didn't want to nap when I was younger.
4. There is great need for a sarcasm font.
5. How the hell are you supposed to fold a fitted sheet?
6. Was learning cursive really necessary?
7. Map Quest really needs to start their directions on # 5. I'm pretty sure I know how to get out of my neighborhood.
8. Obituaries would be a lot more interesting if they told you how the person died.
9. I can't remember the last time I wasn't at least kind of tired.
10. Bad decisions make good stories.
11. You never know when it will strike, but there comes a moment at work when you know that you just aren't going to do anything productive for the rest of the day.
12. Can we all just agree to ignore whatever comes after Blue Ray? I don't want to have to restart my collection...again.
13. I'm always slightly terrified when I exit out of Word and it asks me if I want to save any changes to my ten-page technical report that I swear I did not make any changes to.
14. "Do not machine wash or tumble dry" means I will never wash this - ever.
15. I hate when I just miss a call by the last ring (Hello? Hello? Damn it!), but when I immediately call back, it rings nine times and goes to voice mail. What did you do after I didn't answer? Drop the phone and run away?
16. I hate leaving my house confident and looking good and then not seeing anyone of importance the entire day. What a waste.
17. I keep some people's phone numbers in my phone just so I know not to answer when they call.
18. I think the freezer deserves a light as well.
19. I disagree with Kay Jewelers. I would bet on any given Friday or Saturday night more kisses begin with Miller Lite than Kay.
20. I wish Google Maps had an "Avoid Ghetto" routing option.
21. Sometimes, I'll watch a movie that I watched when I was younger and suddenly realize I had no idea what the heck was going on when I first saw it.
22. I would rather try to carry 10 over-loaded plastic bags in each hand than take 2 trips to bring my groceries in.
23. The only time I look forward to a red light is when I'm trying to finish a text.
24. I have a hard time deciphering the fine line between boredom and hunger.
25. How many times is it appropriate to say "What?" before you just nod and smile because you still didn't hear or understand a word they said?
26. I love the sense of camaraderie when an entire line of cars team up to prevent a jerk from cutting in at the front. Stay strong, brothers and sisters!
27. Shirts get dirty. Underwear gets dirty. Pants? Pants never get dirty, and you can wear them forever.
28. Is it just me or do high school kids get dumber & dumber every year?
29. There's no worse feeling than that millisecond you're sure you are going to die after leaning your chair back a little too far.
30. As a driver I hate pedestrians, and as a pedestrian I hate drivers, but no matter what the mode of transportation, I always hate bicyclists.
31. Sometimes I'll look down at my watch 3 consecutive times and still not know what time it is.

32. Even under ideal conditions people have trouble locating their car keys in a pocket, finding their cell phone, and Pinning the Tail on the Donkey - but I'd bet my ass everyone can find and push the snooze button from 3 feet away, in about 1.7 seconds, eyes closed, first time, every time!